"All good is hard. All evil is easy. Dying, losing, cheating and mediocrity are easy. Stay away from easy."
The past few days have been hectic to say the least. I have had a fever of 103 on and off for 3 days, school work is piling up, among other things. Life is really picking up speed. It really feels like I'm getting to the train station just as it is about to move away, and I just barely make it on each and every time.
Meet my boyfriend of almost two years now: josh. The past six months, we have been a little on and off, and it definitely has been a roller coaster ride... but for some reason, even though things haven't been going all that well, it seems we are getting better... for good.
we are talking, and fixing things together, each and every day... making positive progress (and actually showing that we have learned from our mistakes).
I'm not going to lie, he is great. Despite the things i want to say about him when I am steaming with anger, I really can't say too much bad.
He is a people pleaser, which has been the reason for most of our arguments.. which is, i guess, if you have to have a fault, is a good one.
but he is awesome, he will go to the end of the earth to make me happy... and he has a good heart. he takes care of me when I am sick, and talks about growing old. Sometimes i wonder if we will last, but i hope we do. He comes from a great family, more structured than mine, but it builds good character for him so I can't complain about his rules. I try not to step on their toes, as his dad is his biggest role model. - his dad is lucky to have a son like josh, and josh is lucky to have a dad like Bill.
josh is a great big brother too.. to nicky.. who is a great kid! - josh is compassionate, and nicky's eyes light up every time josh shows up to his games or throws a ball around with him in the driveway. its pretty cute :).
his stepmom and step sisters are great too, i dont know them as well as i know nicky and bill, but from what i do know it is good. josh is lucky.
and he still has time for school and work to boot... superman?
even though i dont see him every day (as he lives an hour away), i still feel like he is always here. though romantic letters aren't as frequent as before... they make me happy... texts, calls... seeing him once a week .. it all keeps me going.
hopefully he opens up a bit more, like he used to. i know he wants to make changes in his life right now... and i hope to help in any way that i can.
i want him to become the person he wants to be, which i know will be amazing.
i love him :)
- thats all for today... sorry it got a little mushy... lol, i've been holding it on my chest for a while
TTFN
suzy
